Juliana has stayed in about the same condition today. She is still chemically paralyzed and still sedated. They have removed a couple tubes, added a couple of medicines, and changed some medicines out for different ones. She is on morphine now for pain management. She did not react to having her nose suctioned or her gums brushed (yesterday - even though she had no signs of consciousness, her heart rate and blood pressure would spike when getting suctioned or brushed - she hates these things).
It is hard to see our little one covered in so many tubes and not be able to hold her or squeeze her. It is hard to call her name and she not answer, to touch her face or hair and feel no response. Only the steady rhythm of her chest from the ventilator and the steady pulsing of all the numbers on the screen show her to be alive.
We lose track of time in this place. What day is it? Time passes slowly. In many ways it feels like "Groundhog Day" again.
I am so sorry you have to witness this. Stay strong and know that she is getting stronger every day she is with her "forever family" They say that they might be able to hear you even if they are sedated... Tell her that everyone is wishing her a fast recover and we can't wait to see her beautiful face smiling very soon :)
ReplyDeleteHang in there. When Micah was under, we held his hand alot. Then later, when he was fussing, the only thing that helped was holding his hand. I'm sure Juliana can hear and feel you. Praying for a quick recovery.
ReplyDeleteYour girls are precious. She's in good hands, both with you and with the doctors.
ReplyDeleteOh sweet baby, your mama and papa are right by your side, God is watching over you, and you have the biggest fan club ever rooting for you.
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